*O* O'ahu

I haven't had much opportunity to travel. Not nearly as much as I would like. But, my wonderful husband has taken me to O'ahu twice. Once in 2008, and then again in 2010, as our late honeymoon. Both times we have stayed in Honolulu, but we have also driven around the island to explore some of the other towns and areas. There is so much to see and experience in the Waikiki area, and I love the laid back feel of the North Shore. I certainly hope someday to see the other islands of Hawaii, but I have loved every second of our stays on O'ahu.

It really is paradise. I can't pick any one thing as my favorite part of either trip. The whole experience was just so amazing. Seeing the memorial for the U.S.S. Arizona at Pearl Harbor was extremely moving and I absolutely loved the Byodo-In temple, which is a replica of an ancient Japanese temple. Hawaiian shave ice can't get much better than that which you get at Matsumoto's. The view after hiking to the top of Diamond Head is breathtaking.
I loved getting up early, spending the morning walking around exploring or going for a run, taking an afternoon nap, and then watching the sunset while having dinner. Of course being with my husband anywhere is my idea of heaven, but our trips to Hawaii have been just about as relaxing and peaceful as possible!

*N* Nothing

So busy on Sat, and I thought I could make it up on Sunday. But, Sunday was busy, too, and I was too tired to think. And, that apparently shut my brain down for 2 days so now it's make up time!

*M* My darling Miss Marissa

My baby girl. Such a sweet baby. Mommy's girl from the very first instant. When I look back at the first few months of her life, I get a sense of calm and quiet. I was more relaxed as a mother the second time around, and I guess she just picked up on it. Even if her big sister was always hovering nearby plotting some way to knock her over or pinch her, Marissa was
calm and sweet.
The first thing I heard out of the doctor's mouth when she was delivered, even before "it's a girl", was "Look at all that hair!". It surprised me, since Baily had been such a baldy. Everyone always commented on her hair, and to this day it's still beautiful, and her big sister is very jealous of it.

Marissa stayed quiet, even as a toddler. She was a little on the slow side with talking, even though it was obvious that she understood everything going on around her. I guess she felt like she didn't need to talk because she had a big sister to do it for her. But, she did need to learn to walk, because she had to keep up, and I was amazed when she took her first steps just a few days before she was 9 months old. After that, there was no stopping her running and climbing, and she was always very proud of herself for it. She'd give me a mischievous little glance as she'd climb right up from the ground to the top of the kitchen table.

Marissa is so much like me in so many ways. Everyone tells us how much we look alike. Ron always laughs at the way we walk and run in exactly the same goofy way.


She is sensitive like me, and a lot of things I witness as she goes to school and interacts with her friends reminds me of myself as a child. Every teacher she has ever had has praised her helpfulness, and she is kind to everyone she knows. She loves to sing, and will spend hours with a radio and a microphone.

I'm so proud of my baby girl, and I expect great things from her in this life. I love you, Marissa, with all my heart!!!!

*L* Long Run

There was a time when it was really no big deal for me to hit the pavement or the treadmill for a couple of hours at a time. 10 miles, 12 miles, even 14 or more. Even when I wasn't necessarily training for a long race, if I felt like a long run, I could make it happen without much effort.

I just can't figure out why I can't seem to get my head in the correct space to make that happen anymore. I think I want to do it. I know I'm capable of doing it. I don't think it's a physical thing, I really don't. I might have to slow down a little bit, but I am certain that my body can still carry me that far.

I have the time to do it right now. I have more time now than I did when I was ticking off those miles so easily. So, what's the deal?

Was I running from something back then? I think that might have been the case. I was running to make myself numb. Running until my thoughts blurred out, or jumped and shuffled around in the comforting way they do when you are 10 miles in. I don't feel the same need to get to that empty space anymore, but I kind of miss it.

I guess these days I am not running for the same reasons I had when I started. Early on (years before the longs runs came so easily) I was running to transform myself. I was trying to break free of the literal and figurative weight that was holding me down. And, it worked. I shed a little of my old self with every mile, and with every step, I came closer to the person I am now.

These days, I sort of take running for granted. I run because I don't know how to stop running, but it's not that I want to stop. It seems like I have lost not only the numbness and comfort I used to get from a long run, but also the joy I used to feel from accomplishing something and knowing that my body was strong and capable.

I suppose I can never get back the same kind of drive and hunger I had in the beginning, because I am in such a different place in my life now. The missing puzzle pieces that I tried to fill up with running are now in their proper place. But, oh long run, how I miss you. I've got to find someway back to you.

*K* Kiss

Midnight sun
Burning through
Every inch of my being
Molten desire
Building, and threatening to spill
Unable to be contained
Until
Your kisses rain down on me
Sweet, refreshing teardrops
Extinguishing the want
And leaving only
Pure bliss.

*J* is for Jennifer

Jennifer. Yes, that's me. It's a fairly common name for women around my age (that's a bit of an understatement, no?). It was the number one most popular girl's name of the decade. According to Social Security Online, there were 581,649 of us born in the 70s. Amy comes in at number 2, with 268,971.

Maybe that is part of the reason why I always felt a little on the boring side growing up: very average, very much part of the pack. I always wanted to be unique, but it seems a little difficult when you're just another Jennifer.

I'm over that now. There was a time in my life when I just wanted attention and wanted to stand out. But now, I am more than content to fly below the radar.

So, in honor of J, here's a random sampling of the things that make this Jennifer happy.

• My Kids
  
• My Husband
  
• My Mom and Dad, my brother and family, my inlaws
  
• My friend Sara
  
• My Canon 5D
  
• Vacationing with my husband in Hawaii
  
• Reading, and reading, and reading some more
  
• Music, especially that music made by my dad and brother
  
• Music, especially Reckless Kelly, Counting Crows, and Fastball
  
• Wallowa Lake in Oregon
  
• Snow, as long as I don't have to drive in it
  
• Running for miles and miles and still feeling like I can run more
  
• Red wine, white wine, bubbly wine
  
• Kitty cats
  
• People that make me laugh, make me laugh and you're probably my friend for life
  
• Disneyland
  
• Tomatoes fresh from the garden
  
• Caramel Apples
  
• Sleeping in
  
• Coffee
  
• The smell of pine trees
  
• Campfires, and roasting marshmallows
  

Maybe my name is common. Maybe I am common. I really don't know, but frankly, I don't care anymore. I just feel happy, and I plan to continue to discover happiness and love all around me.

That is Jennifer.

*I* Interview

As much as I wish I could be getting enough photography jobs to supplement our income as much as we need, the sad truth is that it just isn't happening. I want more than anything to be the work from home mama/goddess, but right now we need a little more than that.

I have been applying for jobs and I have had several interviews, but I haven't had an offer yet. I know things are very competitive right now, and that there are lots of people out there looking for work, so I am trying not to get discouraged.

I have another interview tomorrow morning, and I am am thinking positive thoughts and hoping for good things. I guess only time will tell.